another decade, another part of the journey complete.
 

let's see, in the past 10yrs, i have graduated primary & secondary school, got my diploma, my driving license & currently finishing up my bachelor's. i have also worked countless temp jobs, but have also stayed at 3 companies longer than 6mths. at 14, i was also shallow enough to think i was in love with a boy, but that only made me look naive. in the subsequent years i met & reconnected with some really wonderful guys, to only realise what a jerk magnet i am. then again, it also opened my eyes to see who my real friends are & who are the ones that are completely not worth my time. i have also been through the death of an uncle & my dog, & the feeling isn't good.

for the year that has passed, i thank God for being with me & staying by my side even when i pushed Him away, even when my priorities were screwed so bad. i trust that He has not left my side, & i know He never will. (i wish i were describing my boyfriend HAHA!) this year i saw many failures, many flaws magnified. but i also learned how to be positive & to take things in my stride, to not blame circumstances or people, but to look at myself first. i'm still not perfect, far from it, but i'm learning everyday. to my girlfriends, this year has been awesome. the constant support & encouragement is just amazing, seeing me through my tears & laughter. old friends that i have reconnected with, this world is one hell of a small place. what are the odds man? not knowing how to explain how i'm feeling & at the same time hoping it'll somehow go away is gnawing at me, & sometimes i wish we could be the way we were, not wanting the other to be around. my family, the brother committing the next 2yrs to serving the country, & my (still) wonderful parents, not blaming me for things but still nagging, i love you all. i cannot pray for a better family. this year also saw me going for my first holiday trip without the family, & it was bagus! though i did miss home towards the end bwahahaha! i have renewed respect for my friends studying overseas all alone; God's always with you!

to 2011, i hope for more experiences & opportunities to come by. & for me to be courageous enough to take these head-on. i pray for tenacity & perseverance when going after the things that i desire, & to always look to my Daddy in heaven before making my worldly decision. i also want to eat well, sleep well, exercise much & pray everyday. these are not resolutions; decisions, more like. i think they're more permanent. to new friendships, new memories & new discipline, cheers to a new year! xx